torn between this life that i lead the way that i live and how i should be

well wats up its your boy stoney wit another blogg this time i dont have any lyrics to just bare wit me and listen to the song. my boy pat gave me this song and it just kinda resinated with me since i first heard it... song makes me think...

"jesus christ once said it is easier for a camel to walk through the eye of a needle than it is for a man to walk through the gates of heaven"

WITH THAT SAID

i've recently heard that i believe it was saint peter who wrote basically that no one will be denied from the gates of heaven. how ever it was omitted from the bible all together which leads me to the next quote....

"if we can learn anything from the gospels, it's that, when confronted by god, man rejects and ultimately kills god because god wasn't what man thought god should be"- mike johns

so who's really judging us? we have no TRUE criteria for what "GOD" wants us to be its all distorted. it comes down to what each individual thinks is moral... and as we all know every ones own moral fiber differs. to one person smoking weed is OMFG THATS HORRIBLE and to another is just an every day thing a gift from god. so whos to say im write or im wrong or your right and your wrong?anyways this isnt were i orgininally planned this blog to head but its a valid point... anyways this blogg kinda turned on me so just check the songs and think about what i've said and see what you think. ill get back to this when i regain my train of thought

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace


Father Stoney

why is it that music always makes me think?

kid cudi- day n nite


Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh...

Day 'N' Nite.
(what, what)
I toss and turn, I keep stressin' my mind, mind.
(what, what)
I look for peace, but see I don't attain.
(what, what)
What I need for keeps this silly game we play. Play.

Now look at this.
(what, what)
Madness to magnet keeps attracting me, me.
(what, what)
I try to run but see I'm not that fast.
(what, what)
I think I'm first but surely finish last.
Last.


[Chorus]
Cuz Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone through the day 'n' nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite.
(at, at, at nite)

Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone, some things will never change.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite.
(at, at, at nite)


Hold the phone.
(what, what)
The lonely stoner, Mr. Solo Doe Low.
(what, what)
He's on the move, can't seem to shake the shade.
(what, what)
Within his dreams he see's the life he made.
Made.

The pain is deep.
(what, what)
A slient sleeper you won't hear a peep, peep.
(what, what)
The girl he wants don't seem to want him too.
(what, what)
It seems the feelings that she had are through.
Through.


[Chorus]
Cuz Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone through the day 'n' nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite. (at, at, at nite)

Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone, some things will never change. (yeah)
The lonely loner seems to free his
(yeah) mind at nite.
(at, at,(yeah) at nite)


Slow Mo.
(what, what)
When the tempo slows up and creates that new, new.
(what, what)
He seems alive though he is feelin' blue.
(what, what)
The sun is shinin', man he's super cool.
Cool.

The lonely nites.
(what, what)
They fade away, he slips into his white Nik's. (what, what)
He smokes a clip and then he's on the way.
(what, what)

To free his mind in search of,
To free his mind in search of,
To free his mind in search of,


[Chorus}
Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone through the day 'n' nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite.
(at, at, at nite)

Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone, some things will never change.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite.
(at, at, at nite)





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how to start how to start... well i got what i thought would be hella good news today but you know some how i started thinking. some how i believe thinking will be my ultimate demise... theres this idk hole in my life where some one should be but i feel i know who it is that fills it but i feel she's kinda left me in my time of need :\ yet some how im like a heroin addict and shes heroin i just cant stop thinkin about her... i've tried to move on and for a little bit you know i thought i had but then i snapped back. now she's back yet i'm with some one else and im at the same road as i was with vision. do i pass up a different adventure or wait to continue one that adventure that used to be. questions have been answered but not the one in particular that im looking for she says she still loves me she says we still have a chance but just not yet? she says she cant be in a relationship right now... what's that really mean? "I try to run but see I'm not that fast.(what, what)I think I'm first but surely finish last." i was so happy to hear i had a chance i could hardly breath... but then i started listenin to some music and i started thinking... do i want to try to see if we can continue on this old adventure or do i want to continue on this current adventure? in some aspects heart break seems inevitable. so what the fuck do i do do i pass up another adventure like i have just to possibly continue on this old aventure? whys it have to be so hard? why do i get tested like this? is this the rest of my life wishing for what might never be and passing up wat could be? i guess im destined for another sleepless night of thinking and self reflection, self awareness, and thoughts of wat i want for my future. guess the balls in my court what to do what to do :\

"Cuz Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone through the day 'n' nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite."

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney

Girl I’m going crazy, I can’t get you off my mind Seems like the only thing that I think about is you all the time

Girl I’m going crazy, I can’t get you off my mind
Seems like the only thing that I think about is you all the time
I have no words to express the way I feel about you
I’ve found my heart’s desire – baby it’s you
You give me everything that I want, you give me more than I need
What’s a guy to give a girl who seems to have everything
Too much time is never enough time to be spent with you
Oh yes, oh yes, oh yes it’s true

You’re no ordinary girl, you always speak your mind
You’re no ordinary girl, you’re one of a kind
You’re no ordinary girl, I can see it in your eyes
You’re no ordinary girl, oh yes that’s right

I’ve been around here for a while and yes I’ve seen some things
But nothing even comes close to the love that you bring
You know exactly who you are, you know just who you want to be
I can’t believe this love is happening to me

So much fear to face to get me where I am
It’s clear for me to see this was never my plan
Here we are now girl, just me and you
Loving every minute that I spend with you

You’re no ordinary girl, you always speak your mind
You’re no ordinary girl, you’re one of a kind
You’re no ordinary girl, I can see it in your eyes
You’re no ordinary girl, oh yes that’s right
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how to start how to start i know only a handful of you are gonna read this and most likely the one it was ment for is never gonna see this.. but fu­ck it grab me my shovel and bucket…

how can this song be sooo gah what the fu­ck would i call it? bring me up and happy yet completely demolish my sense of happiness? simply when i think about it....this song basically reminds me and just hints at everything i saw in her everything i felt and it just kills me inside slowly… i heard this song when we had company over and it really hit me i successfully tried to keep my composer until the company left then i cranked it up and started thinking killing my self dagger by dagger line by line, its weird how i cant stop listening to it, it just seems to resonate in my head just trying to tell me something and it seems pretty obvious but some how i still don’t think its probable which is doubtlessly why it kills me… anyways pack a bowl crank it up and enjoy what bring me pain. please just listen to it and just think about it ask your self if you have ever had some one like this in your life and enjoy every second you have with them if there still there

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney

its all over, i know you feel it, its all over, how can i hold on?

I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down

Well I tried to make some
sense of all this
I tried to work it out
I don't know how i got
caught up in the middle
of all this
i just know I got to get the fuck out

Well I tried to change the
channel and move on
I tried to bite my tongue
I don't know how I could
be so fuckin stupid for
so long
I dont know why I had to be the one

This has gotta be some misunderstanding
No, this is not my point of view

It's all over
(When you know it's all over)
I know you feel it
(I know you feel it)
It's all over
(You know it's all over)
How can I hold on?

It's all over
(You know it's all over)
I know you feel it
(I know you feel it)
It's all over
(You know it's all over)
But it's all I do
Ooooh

Well I feel like such a clown this time
Well I feel like giving up
Every single one of my friends
let me down this time
When I was dying, they were living it up

Well I could not control
the wound over stars or
myself
I cannot control the sun
I don't know how I could sleep
in that bed for so long
I don't know why I had to be the one

This has gotta be some misunderstanding
No, this is not my point of view.

It's all over
(When you know it's all over)
I know you feel it
(I know you feel it)
It's all over
(You know it's all over)
How can I hold on?

It's all over
(You know it's all over)
I know you feel it
(I know you feel it)
It's all over
(You know it's all over)
But it's all I do
Ooooh

I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down

Well it feels so quiet before the storm
Well it feels just like a dream
I shelter myself in hope
I know why the caged bird sings...

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lately I've just felt like I've been missing something in my life or some one then i talked to my mentor pat... moving on seems really hard but how many opportunities must i let pass before i learn? why was it over? was it because she didn't want to hold me back? is it because she cared about me a lot and didn't want to hurt me? is it like the time when she stopped talking to me because she cut and she didn't want me to hate her? when i told her it hurts more not talking to her than her cutting? why why why? i feel so empty right now so lost so in the fucking dark... the truth is i miss you and if u ever read this i love you a lot and ill never stop I've told you this a thousand times.. every thing seemed so fucking far away but our hearts were close nothing could have stopped me from wanting to be with you... was it because i told you id give up everything to be with you? that i would give up going to Humboldt and college and leaving So Cal like i wanted to just to be with you if you went to college in la? so many questions unanswered, so many memory's gone. so i guess this is the end of it...i miss you and not being able to talk to you hurts the most so here's to forgetting about you in some form or another good bye

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney

"Well I tried to make some sense of all this I tried to work it out I don't know how i got caught up in the middle of all this i just know I got to get the fuck out Well I tried to change the channel and move on I tried to bite my tongue I don't know how I could be so fuckin stupid for so long I dont know why I had to be the one"-SUNDOWN by (hed) P.E.

ONE

“Yo tech, it’s the last call baby it’s good

Yeah, you know a remix just feels right dog?

Before we get outta here, you gotta drop one last gem on them

Knahmsayin?

No question, it’s like the elders told me

No one person can do anything, but everyone can do something

So we gotta rep, for all the ni­ggaz that ain’t here right now

The outro tip, the One Remix, yo

One Enterprises, comprises the artist and the sound

The pen and paper plays my savior while I’m getting down

Pray for my nieghbors as a favor for holding me down

Slave for my papers as I savor the way that it pounds

It’s underground, but the blatent vibrations widely found

Facing the nation complacent radio stations now

Stop hesitaing and contemplating the way we paitient

Start motivating and get them playin the [censored] we sayin

Ain’t no delayin in this war that we gettin slayed in

Cause times a waistin while we stand adjacent to abrasions

They fouls are more than flagrant

And so I see the prisons cages while I pound the pavement

Looking for payment saying fu­ck enslavement

Usin the tools of old ancients

Announcing my engagment to this music that we making

Ain’t no faking on tracks, and we ain’t never come wack (never!)

Immortal Technique and Akir y’all ni­ggaz fear us that’s a wrap

It’s like

One love

One music

One people

One movement

One heart

One spark

One, One, One, One

One gift

One lift

One stance

One shift

One way

One day

One, One, One, One, One

Immortal Technique in the trenches with my ni­gga Akir

Our family surived the genocides so we can be here

And now we enterprise the aftermath, one in the same

Living the revolution ‘till we catch one in the brain

And even then my spirit will return in heavenly form

And wipe the chess board clean, of my enemies pawns

The red don communist threat, burried and gone

So they invented a war, the goverment can carry on

It makes me wonder if the word of god is lost in the man

This is for the children of Iraq, lost in the sand

This is for the illest emcees that’ll never be known

And this is for all the soliders that’ll never come home

I wrote this for Momia, stuck in a beast

For people who, march in the streets, and struggle for peace

For hood ni­ggaz, born rugged, never rocking Versace

Eddie Ramierez’s cousin George, and my old friend Sashi

Chris from the block, and all my ni­ggaz stuck in a cell

Paul Wolfowitz, motherfu­cker I’ll see you in hell

My destiny is to show the world, that the music is real

Go back in time and play this sh­it, for the slaves in the field

And for my children in the future, waiting to breathe

People slowly dying hanging on, waiting to leave

Believe when I’m gone, and this album’s on a library shelf

I’ll be one with god and one with you and everything else

One love

One music

One people

One movement

One heart

One spark

One, One, One, One

One gift

One lift

One stance

One shift

One way

One day

One, One, One, One, One

Yeah..

Revolutionary Volume 2 has been brought to you

By the type of motherfu­ckers who ain’t scared of sh­it

And if you playing this album, and I’m no longer here

And sometime far away from when I recorded this

Remember that history

Isn’t the way the corperate controlled media made it look like

Read between the lines and free your mind

Revolution is the birth of equality

And the anti-thesis to oppression

But this is only built for real motherfu­ckers

So when I’m gone, don’t let nobody I never got along with

Try to make songs kissing my a­ss, recycling my beats or my vocals

The sh­it is real over here man

Thank you for listening, and thank you for supporting independent Hip Hop

The heart and soul of our culture

Keeping the truth alive

Goodnight my people.. goodnight… “-one remix immortal technique

hey i wanted to put this up on here cuz i honestly believe that
every democrat every republican every “african american” to every
“european american” to every “latin american” to any other
anything-american i havent listed were all one we all want the same
thing we all want to survive and do the best for out family we all just
wanna be happy were all FU­CKIN AMERICANS even if you live in canada or
mexico or brazil were all co-existing on this continent that we call
america so stop talkin sh­it on ur brother from another and accept that
every ones the same just cuz we have different political goals and
dreams doesn’t mean a god d­am fu­cking thing we all just wanna be
happy and if you see that and you can admit it with me then reply to
this and let your self be heard and known even if your not from america
let your voice be heard and stand up for your own views

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney

anxiety and thinking

some "latino" man set a bum on fire the other day in la. what amazes me is the reason the dude was homeless in the first place and how long he let it keep him down. it wasnt that he didnt want to work or couldnt work it was becuase the chick he love walked out of his life and he lived on the streets for somethin like 15 years. they said he wasnt the kind of bum to sit on the corner and ask for change he just sat there makin the best outta nothin, the thing that makes it more amazin is that this dude came from a pretty well off family...life amazes me some times i saw this on tv the other day and its the only thing i saw that day that just stuck wit me... the other thing that amazes me is tha shit that people put others thru just to feel like part of something bigger than them and something that there really not just another little punk rollin the streets that wanted to join a gang and feel like somethin more than himself just so that 20 years later he can look at his kids and his girl thru that glass at the jail and cry himself to sleep wonderin if his kids made the exact same mistakes as he did....its not the war on gangs us americans need to be worryin about its tha war ..ism and the war on ignorance that we need to concern ourselfs with

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney