TORN

this would be another torn blog... torn bein a song by killa c...



lyrics:

(Killa C)
Jesus Christ once said its easier for a camel to walk through the eye of a needle than for a man to walk through the gates of heaven, This is my story of the same struggle, here we go
i was born in this life of sin and i promised my father i wouldn't do it again
but here i am stuck in the middle
my hearts with the lord but my body's with the devil (Fuck Em) Even though i meant every word that i said this busta motha fucka needs to be dead.
(Supaman)
Deep in ya head i know your strugglin and juggalin the scriptures
Don't do it man u gottta think about your brothers and sisters
Manslaughter Killa C will you listen i know you dont want your daughter to see u in prision,
Make a decision cause the weigt of sin is death it doesn't matter if your breaking his shins or his neck.
(Killa C)
Now they're aint no way i can just let him walk his actions have earned him an outline in chalk besides homie this wouldn't be the first time so ima smoke this bitch then ima be fine.
(Chorus:)
Torn between the life that i lead,
the way that i live and how i should be
so torn and twiztid this soul will never be lifted,
I had an ass and i got it, how i bought it, gettin what i earned because i never even fought it, can't go back stuck in his ways to the wicked one ain't self or slave
(Supaman)
I know you paid your dues write through a terrible sitile, that why i pray for you and hope you carry the bible, walk the walk talk the talk try again dont die in sin he'll give you the strength in the lions den, dont let the demons take you they whisper in your ear they tell you to pull the trigger laughin cause the end is near, i know you feel the pressure, couldnt bare ro hold the guilt god wants to show you the real but you wont let him through.
(Killa C)
i know its not like thats my only problem my struggles, my issues, its my fault i got em, even tough this rotton fuck deserves a slug in the mouth my judges is quick i shall make em brainless i promise to be swift and make his end painless, i think i can do it(do it) and get away with it regardless dog i love ya dont ever forget it.
(Chorus:)
Torn between the life that i lead,
the way that i live and how i should be
so torn and twiztid this soul will never be lifted,
I had an ass and i got it, how i bought it, gettin what i earned because i never even fought it, can't go back stuck in his ways to the wicked one ain't self or slave
(Killa C)
I dont think u know what im really goin through, i feel this is somin i have to do, i can hear the vioces and the prolly demons and its hard not to listen when they wont stop screamin.
(Supaman)
its not even a question you leavin a blessin but hide the laws teachin a lesson keepin u stressin but im tryin to show you a better way but your gonna have to fight, jesus is watchin come on and make the sacrifice.
(Killa C)
alright ok ill make the sacrifice how about i start with this mother fuckers life, i hear what your sayin and i know what u mean but your wastin your time tryin to preach to me,
(Supaman)
Its easy to see you settin your ways and not gonna change you blinded by your enemies you tastin the grave (Come on) but since the devil is a breakin his chains thats a grave in his name you headed straight for the flame.
(Chrous:)
Torn between the life that i lead,
the way that i live and how i should be
so torn and twiztid this soul will never be lifted,
I had an ass and i got it, how i bought it, gettin what i earned because i never even fought it, can't go back stuck in his ways to the wicked one ain't self or slave
(Killa C)
How do u expect e to change who i am i beleive in the power and thast all i really can
(Supaman)
The power can change man devour the game plan, satan hes a waitin anticipatin to shake hands
(Killa C)
You know our hands have already shaken my friend and at night i dream about burnin in the end
(Supaman)
Now what your sayin you plan the toture is real scorchin the girll, i see the black corpse on the hill
(Killa C)
if death is comin one way or the other i might as well kill this punk motha fucker
(Supaman)
Granate there aint no other opportunity to stop the time is now turn the other cheek and dont pull the glock
(Killa C)
Cocked and locked the heats up ima bout to send this mother fucker to the depths of hell.
(Supaman)
you can still bail but your decision i respect it you now know the truth u can accept t or reject it.
Fuck it

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soooo maybe my problems not as fucked up as killa c's problem but the the urge is still there

im at a struggle with my self to do what is possibly the "right" thing to do, or do do what i want to do and finish off this phase that i have no idea how long it would last...

i know i need to set an example, be a roll model and be there for lizzie, and i know i wanna remeber seein her grow up...

but on the other hand i have my own life to deal with and i like intoxication and i want to have fun...

ive missed out on my nephew and my other neices life and idk if im ever gonna be able to be in their life or if imma be accepted into their life...

so im at a struggle "torn between the life that i lead, the way that i live and how i should be"

its not as easy as a decision as one would think

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace


Father Stoney