my life...

this song really reminds me of her tho i may not type much about it, it's still extremely relevant.



Yeah I just wanna do you right
Show you all this love and mommy treat you right
Take me from the darkness into the light
I read you like a book Sophia treat me right

I was in the desert I was walking with the dead
I was lost and I found Sophia on the internet
Now it's on cause I'm tired of living with the one-percent
Now it's on cause I'm ready for that ninety-nine percent

I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you right
I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you...Understand

Yeah you where always there for me
Even when, when they lied about my history (this kinda reminds me of what robert would do)
They were met Sophia in the University
High society says that she's too good for me
Listen, you can't keep us apart
Sophia stole my heart
What give you the right to keep us
All up in the dark Devil
She's not your girl she's mine
Geometric so sublime
She's not your girl she's mine
Geometric so sublime

I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you right
I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you...Understand

Come on baby take a walk with me
Down the cold dark center of the mystery
I'll break the code if you turn the key

Come on baby take a walk with me
Come on baby take a walk with me
Come on baby take a walk with me
Come on come on come on

Hahaha yeah!

Yeah I just wanna do you right
Show you all this love and mommy treat you right
Take me from the darkness into the light
I read you like a book Sophia treat me right

Sophia take my hand
Without you I'm half a man
I was blind now I can see
Look Sophia what you done to me
Look Sophia what you given me
I was in bondage now I'm free
Look Sophia what you done to me
I was in bondage now I'm free

I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love (Sophia)
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you right
I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you right

Come on Come on Come on
I need it, I want it, can't live without it

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So me and my girl ashley had a good talk today like it didnt really have any origination we werent fighting or anything we just ended up in a serious conversation, but her phone was dieing and i still had alot more to say so i decided that id just hit the blog up and kinda plaster my feelings on the internet and kinda recap the conversation. So with me and ash for some reason i really feel comfortable talking to her and trying to tell her exactly how i feel. I love the fact that we can be completely honest with each other you know it really just shows that me and her have a shot at a future together. It's crazy because i cant really explain how i feel right now, I've never felt this way in my life. It's because i think i finally found something that i dont think i can fuck up and found something might go right for once. I feel like my life and my heart are heading in the right direction, and its the most amazing feeling in the world. But i still worry its always in the back of my head and she knows it and she see's it. It'd completely shatter my heart if we were over. I'm just scared of the fact that i might fuck something up, or that some one might manipulate her into thinking that I'm a horrible person "Yeah you where always there for me Even when, when they lied about my history". I guess that's kinda what scares me about her talking to Robert. Like me and Robert hate each other but like he's not some one ash can just get rid of. The thing that scares me is the hate he has for me i just don't want to lose her like what if he manipulates her and fucks with her head making me seem like a horrible person. She says it wont happen and that she'll never break up with me but that what if still sits there. I think its just weird for me because i can cut almost anyone in my life out of it with out a regret. I know me and Ashley have only been together for a month and two weeks but its strange how much we connect and how similar we are. At first i used to have this thought in my mind that i couldn't shake that kept asking me what if ash was just a tool that Robert's using to break my heart, fuck with my head, and torture me. The thoughts still in the back of my head but its slowly fading away. I know she'd never do that to me but that what if is always there. I think I'd be ways easier to put behind me if she lived in cali near me or with me. Is there something in my head that just wont allow me to be happy? My insecurities could eat me alive. Anyways.... then we started talking about drinking and drugs and how i promised myself i wouldn't do any hard drugs or anything because i didn't want to end up like my uncle or be compared to my uncle, and she was telling me about how she had hated what she had become. So i said something that id never really thought I'd say, nor volunteer to do just to make sure she's happy and she's comfortable. And to also make sure that she doesn't have to worry about me getting arrested or getting some bad stuff. I just want to do everything i can to make sure she's happy, comfortable, and not worried. Like i love her with all my heart, she's my everything. Then she told me that she wanted to quit smoking for me that she wants to make sure that we'd be able to live a long life together and not have to worry about lung cancer to much, and have to worry about other serious health issues much. It really made my day to hear that she would drop cigarettes so she can spend more time with me in the long run. It's crazy she's the first girl that's actually good for me the one that keeps me on the straight path that I'd actually listen to. I'm so in love with her its insane. Then she tells me she's lucky because she's only heard of guys like me caring sweet sensitive... but has never met one that was straight until she met me. Even though we've only been together for a month and a half i just have a feeling that she could be the one. we have so much in common we read each other well, we think alike, we're practically the same person yet at the same time we're complete opposites. She knows how to talk to me when I'm pissed or sad and knows how to cheer me up in less than like five minutes. We understand each other and understand what each other has been through and know how it's effected us. I think this maybe true love. If I'm dreaming never wake me up this is what i want. So i guess this is all i got for right now.

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney a/k/a Aubs