my life...

this song really reminds me of her tho i may not type much about it, it's still extremely relevant.



Yeah I just wanna do you right
Show you all this love and mommy treat you right
Take me from the darkness into the light
I read you like a book Sophia treat me right

I was in the desert I was walking with the dead
I was lost and I found Sophia on the internet
Now it's on cause I'm tired of living with the one-percent
Now it's on cause I'm ready for that ninety-nine percent

I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you right
I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you...Understand

Yeah you where always there for me
Even when, when they lied about my history (this kinda reminds me of what robert would do)
They were met Sophia in the University
High society says that she's too good for me
Listen, you can't keep us apart
Sophia stole my heart
What give you the right to keep us
All up in the dark Devil
She's not your girl she's mine
Geometric so sublime
She's not your girl she's mine
Geometric so sublime

I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you right
I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you...Understand

Come on baby take a walk with me
Down the cold dark center of the mystery
I'll break the code if you turn the key

Come on baby take a walk with me
Come on baby take a walk with me
Come on baby take a walk with me
Come on come on come on

Hahaha yeah!

Yeah I just wanna do you right
Show you all this love and mommy treat you right
Take me from the darkness into the light
I read you like a book Sophia treat me right

Sophia take my hand
Without you I'm half a man
I was blind now I can see
Look Sophia what you done to me
Look Sophia what you given me
I was in bondage now I'm free
Look Sophia what you done to me
I was in bondage now I'm free

I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love (Sophia)
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you right
I just want to show you love, show you love, show you love
I just want to do you right, do you right, do you right

Come on Come on Come on
I need it, I want it, can't live without it

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So me and my girl ashley had a good talk today like it didnt really have any origination we werent fighting or anything we just ended up in a serious conversation, but her phone was dieing and i still had alot more to say so i decided that id just hit the blog up and kinda plaster my feelings on the internet and kinda recap the conversation. So with me and ash for some reason i really feel comfortable talking to her and trying to tell her exactly how i feel. I love the fact that we can be completely honest with each other you know it really just shows that me and her have a shot at a future together. It's crazy because i cant really explain how i feel right now, I've never felt this way in my life. It's because i think i finally found something that i dont think i can fuck up and found something might go right for once. I feel like my life and my heart are heading in the right direction, and its the most amazing feeling in the world. But i still worry its always in the back of my head and she knows it and she see's it. It'd completely shatter my heart if we were over. I'm just scared of the fact that i might fuck something up, or that some one might manipulate her into thinking that I'm a horrible person "Yeah you where always there for me Even when, when they lied about my history". I guess that's kinda what scares me about her talking to Robert. Like me and Robert hate each other but like he's not some one ash can just get rid of. The thing that scares me is the hate he has for me i just don't want to lose her like what if he manipulates her and fucks with her head making me seem like a horrible person. She says it wont happen and that she'll never break up with me but that what if still sits there. I think its just weird for me because i can cut almost anyone in my life out of it with out a regret. I know me and Ashley have only been together for a month and two weeks but its strange how much we connect and how similar we are. At first i used to have this thought in my mind that i couldn't shake that kept asking me what if ash was just a tool that Robert's using to break my heart, fuck with my head, and torture me. The thoughts still in the back of my head but its slowly fading away. I know she'd never do that to me but that what if is always there. I think I'd be ways easier to put behind me if she lived in cali near me or with me. Is there something in my head that just wont allow me to be happy? My insecurities could eat me alive. Anyways.... then we started talking about drinking and drugs and how i promised myself i wouldn't do any hard drugs or anything because i didn't want to end up like my uncle or be compared to my uncle, and she was telling me about how she had hated what she had become. So i said something that id never really thought I'd say, nor volunteer to do just to make sure she's happy and she's comfortable. And to also make sure that she doesn't have to worry about me getting arrested or getting some bad stuff. I just want to do everything i can to make sure she's happy, comfortable, and not worried. Like i love her with all my heart, she's my everything. Then she told me that she wanted to quit smoking for me that she wants to make sure that we'd be able to live a long life together and not have to worry about lung cancer to much, and have to worry about other serious health issues much. It really made my day to hear that she would drop cigarettes so she can spend more time with me in the long run. It's crazy she's the first girl that's actually good for me the one that keeps me on the straight path that I'd actually listen to. I'm so in love with her its insane. Then she tells me she's lucky because she's only heard of guys like me caring sweet sensitive... but has never met one that was straight until she met me. Even though we've only been together for a month and a half i just have a feeling that she could be the one. we have so much in common we read each other well, we think alike, we're practically the same person yet at the same time we're complete opposites. She knows how to talk to me when I'm pissed or sad and knows how to cheer me up in less than like five minutes. We understand each other and understand what each other has been through and know how it's effected us. I think this maybe true love. If I'm dreaming never wake me up this is what i want. So i guess this is all i got for right now.

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney a/k/a Aubs

ASHLEY MARIE PEARCE

lyrics
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baby baby
this is lil Tweety
and i wanna confess a feelin' this dedication's goin' out to my girl

all i ever wanted was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do
all i ever needed was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do

promise me once again baby girl this ones for you
and its comin' from my heart every day i stay true
so we'll never be apart
your all i need
you and me
me and you

cause there's no one in this world that could love me the the way you do
see they don't understand what you've been through.

but i promise you this i would never leave beside
every kiss its like this makin' sparks like the fourth of July
see the truth is i never met some one like you
and do the things you do
and make me say the things i say
every day i wake up happier then ever
we never felt like this so baby girl take this kiss

all i ever wanted was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do
all i ever needed was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do

and i hope you feel this in every kiss that i give
now hush little lady
don't rush things baby
cause it never caught my good so lets take this one slow
cause love like this should always be right
every night i hold you tight
don't argue no fight
ever since i laid eyes on you
baby girl you make me recognize what love is about
i could see it in your eyes that you're tired of bein' alone

baby girl we'll promise to always be honest baby girl you got it till death do us part you will stay in my heart always and forever
we will always stay together
its true so don't cry no more
cause I'm meant to make it better for you

all i ever wanted was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do
all i ever needed was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do

now its time for me to go cause I'm coming home to you
and i just wanna say i love you
and thanks for bein' there true
i will always have your back
i would never cheat on you so don't worry bout that
cause my heart is where your at
no matter how far i will always to the one that shows me love
she's the one I'm thinkin' of
everyday and every night
and you know who you are baby girl lets make this right

your my star in the sky
my light in my life
the apple in my eye
baby girl its no like
i will always try no matter how bad the situation is cause I've had love like this

all i ever wanted was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do
all i ever needed was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do

all i ever wanted was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do
all i ever needed was somebody like you some one to love me and treat me the way that you do
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So this song basically describes how i feel about Ashley Marie Pearce. She's absolutely amazing and i really cant imagine myself with anyone else. There's not a day that goes by that i don't think about her and not an hour that goes by where shes not on my mind. I haven't felt this way about a woman in my life, shes my heart my soul and my life. Its crazy how much we're the same yet at the same time we're complete opposites. We complete each others sentences, say the same thing at the same time, and kinda operate on the same wave length. Some times i think she knows me better than myself. She loves me for who i am and calls me out on my bullshit because for some reason she's the only one that can see right through me. She's honestly one of the few if not the only person that understands me and gets me. And she's actually the only woman I've ever got into a argument with some one over because they were flirting with my girlfriend. She's got eyes that are comparable to the sunrise. And despite what she thinks I think she's beautiful with or without make up. LOL I don't know if she know it or not, but I like my women looking "dead" for those who don't know looking "dead"'s basically just not wearing make up. It's crazy her laugh drives me crazy insane and so does her accent. I'm in love with the girl and I love everything about her. And she's actually good for me. Like Imma try to quit smoking with her. She keeps me inline and I know for sure she's gonna try to keep me outta jail. Because she hates when i do stupid stuff, or even think about doing stupid stuff for that matter. Is there really a such thing as a soul mate? I'm starting to think there is such thing. I mean every thing just feels perfect. I feel comfortable telling her everything and I actually tell her what I'm feeling with all honesty, and we talk about it and work it out it feels so good to be able to do that and be completely honest and just to know that some one actually cares enough to sit there with me and actually make sure we have a fighting chance for an actual future together. She's the only woman I wanna talk to and flirt with and be with. Is it a bad thing if she's also the only girlfriend I've ever actually told any one in my family about? Like I think this really is one of the first times if not the first time that I have a girlfriend that really cares about how I feel and cares about how she effects me. In fact a couple of them might read this and disagree, but she's the only one that I feel shows and openly cares about it. I'm in love with Ashley Marie Pearce. I'm writing this after being off the phone with her for less than about 2 hours and I already miss her. Even when I'm talking to her through text or instant message I still miss her. But when I hear her voice it does something to me. It might seem crazy but it settles me when i hear her voice, because I know that everything in my life is o.k. as long as I have her. And it seems that the only time I'm not bored is when I'm talking to her on the phone. I really wasn't expecting to write this much but she just means everything to me, she's always running through my mind. She stole my heart and I stole hers. I think Imma let her keep it. I mean I know its in safe hands and she knows hers is safe with me. I'm hella happy. I've finally found a girl worth fighting for and I've finally finished writing a song that happened to be for her. She's my everything, She's every thing I've ever wanted and needed. I wouldn't trade her or give her up for the world. And nothings gonna stop me from loving her. She's my drug and I'm her addict. Nothing is going to come between her. Ashley I want you to read this part more than anything else in this blog, I want you to quote this and I want you to never forget these words. I WILL NEVER CHEAT ON YOU. I WILL NEVER HURT YOU. AND EVEN IF WE ARE NOT TOGETHER YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MINE. She's my best friend and my girlfriend. I'd give my life just to save hers. I never want us to stop, I never wanna be with out her, and I always want her to be mine. I've got so much more to say, but i really need to wrap this up. Call me obsessed, call me crazy, call me a fool, call me what ever you want. But I'm in love and I'm happier than I've ever been. So anything negative you have to say about me doesn't really matter to me anymore.

Ashley Marie Pearce I Love you with all my heart

Love you for ever,
Aubrey James Lee

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney a/k/a Aubs

P.S.

You've got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
I'm not done
You've got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there
Man I swear
You've got porcelain skin of course you're a ten
And now you even got your own song
But movin' on
you've got the cutest laugh I ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin' one word
And I would still cherish every moment
And when I start to build my future you're the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere I go I keep your picture in my wallet like here

I changed cupids choke holds lyrics around to describe a little more how I feel baby. I LOVE YOU

TORN

this would be another torn blog... torn bein a song by killa c...



lyrics:

(Killa C)
Jesus Christ once said its easier for a camel to walk through the eye of a needle than for a man to walk through the gates of heaven, This is my story of the same struggle, here we go
i was born in this life of sin and i promised my father i wouldn't do it again
but here i am stuck in the middle
my hearts with the lord but my body's with the devil (Fuck Em) Even though i meant every word that i said this busta motha fucka needs to be dead.
(Supaman)
Deep in ya head i know your strugglin and juggalin the scriptures
Don't do it man u gottta think about your brothers and sisters
Manslaughter Killa C will you listen i know you dont want your daughter to see u in prision,
Make a decision cause the weigt of sin is death it doesn't matter if your breaking his shins or his neck.
(Killa C)
Now they're aint no way i can just let him walk his actions have earned him an outline in chalk besides homie this wouldn't be the first time so ima smoke this bitch then ima be fine.
(Chorus:)
Torn between the life that i lead,
the way that i live and how i should be
so torn and twiztid this soul will never be lifted,
I had an ass and i got it, how i bought it, gettin what i earned because i never even fought it, can't go back stuck in his ways to the wicked one ain't self or slave
(Supaman)
I know you paid your dues write through a terrible sitile, that why i pray for you and hope you carry the bible, walk the walk talk the talk try again dont die in sin he'll give you the strength in the lions den, dont let the demons take you they whisper in your ear they tell you to pull the trigger laughin cause the end is near, i know you feel the pressure, couldnt bare ro hold the guilt god wants to show you the real but you wont let him through.
(Killa C)
i know its not like thats my only problem my struggles, my issues, its my fault i got em, even tough this rotton fuck deserves a slug in the mouth my judges is quick i shall make em brainless i promise to be swift and make his end painless, i think i can do it(do it) and get away with it regardless dog i love ya dont ever forget it.
(Chorus:)
Torn between the life that i lead,
the way that i live and how i should be
so torn and twiztid this soul will never be lifted,
I had an ass and i got it, how i bought it, gettin what i earned because i never even fought it, can't go back stuck in his ways to the wicked one ain't self or slave
(Killa C)
I dont think u know what im really goin through, i feel this is somin i have to do, i can hear the vioces and the prolly demons and its hard not to listen when they wont stop screamin.
(Supaman)
its not even a question you leavin a blessin but hide the laws teachin a lesson keepin u stressin but im tryin to show you a better way but your gonna have to fight, jesus is watchin come on and make the sacrifice.
(Killa C)
alright ok ill make the sacrifice how about i start with this mother fuckers life, i hear what your sayin and i know what u mean but your wastin your time tryin to preach to me,
(Supaman)
Its easy to see you settin your ways and not gonna change you blinded by your enemies you tastin the grave (Come on) but since the devil is a breakin his chains thats a grave in his name you headed straight for the flame.
(Chrous:)
Torn between the life that i lead,
the way that i live and how i should be
so torn and twiztid this soul will never be lifted,
I had an ass and i got it, how i bought it, gettin what i earned because i never even fought it, can't go back stuck in his ways to the wicked one ain't self or slave
(Killa C)
How do u expect e to change who i am i beleive in the power and thast all i really can
(Supaman)
The power can change man devour the game plan, satan hes a waitin anticipatin to shake hands
(Killa C)
You know our hands have already shaken my friend and at night i dream about burnin in the end
(Supaman)
Now what your sayin you plan the toture is real scorchin the girll, i see the black corpse on the hill
(Killa C)
if death is comin one way or the other i might as well kill this punk motha fucker
(Supaman)
Granate there aint no other opportunity to stop the time is now turn the other cheek and dont pull the glock
(Killa C)
Cocked and locked the heats up ima bout to send this mother fucker to the depths of hell.
(Supaman)
you can still bail but your decision i respect it you now know the truth u can accept t or reject it.
Fuck it

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soooo maybe my problems not as fucked up as killa c's problem but the the urge is still there

im at a struggle with my self to do what is possibly the "right" thing to do, or do do what i want to do and finish off this phase that i have no idea how long it would last...

i know i need to set an example, be a roll model and be there for lizzie, and i know i wanna remeber seein her grow up...

but on the other hand i have my own life to deal with and i like intoxication and i want to have fun...

ive missed out on my nephew and my other neices life and idk if im ever gonna be able to be in their life or if imma be accepted into their life...

so im at a struggle "torn between the life that i lead, the way that i live and how i should be"

its not as easy as a decision as one would think

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace


Father Stoney

torn between this life that i lead the way that i live and how i should be

well wats up its your boy stoney wit another blogg this time i dont have any lyrics to just bare wit me and listen to the song. my boy pat gave me this song and it just kinda resinated with me since i first heard it... song makes me think...

"jesus christ once said it is easier for a camel to walk through the eye of a needle than it is for a man to walk through the gates of heaven"

WITH THAT SAID

i've recently heard that i believe it was saint peter who wrote basically that no one will be denied from the gates of heaven. how ever it was omitted from the bible all together which leads me to the next quote....

"if we can learn anything from the gospels, it's that, when confronted by god, man rejects and ultimately kills god because god wasn't what man thought god should be"- mike johns

so who's really judging us? we have no TRUE criteria for what "GOD" wants us to be its all distorted. it comes down to what each individual thinks is moral... and as we all know every ones own moral fiber differs. to one person smoking weed is OMFG THATS HORRIBLE and to another is just an every day thing a gift from god. so whos to say im write or im wrong or your right and your wrong?anyways this isnt were i orgininally planned this blog to head but its a valid point... anyways this blogg kinda turned on me so just check the songs and think about what i've said and see what you think. ill get back to this when i regain my train of thought

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace


Father Stoney

why is it that music always makes me think?

kid cudi- day n nite


Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh...

Day 'N' Nite.
(what, what)
I toss and turn, I keep stressin' my mind, mind.
(what, what)
I look for peace, but see I don't attain.
(what, what)
What I need for keeps this silly game we play. Play.

Now look at this.
(what, what)
Madness to magnet keeps attracting me, me.
(what, what)
I try to run but see I'm not that fast.
(what, what)
I think I'm first but surely finish last.
Last.


[Chorus]
Cuz Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone through the day 'n' nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite.
(at, at, at nite)

Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone, some things will never change.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite.
(at, at, at nite)


Hold the phone.
(what, what)
The lonely stoner, Mr. Solo Doe Low.
(what, what)
He's on the move, can't seem to shake the shade.
(what, what)
Within his dreams he see's the life he made.
Made.

The pain is deep.
(what, what)
A slient sleeper you won't hear a peep, peep.
(what, what)
The girl he wants don't seem to want him too.
(what, what)
It seems the feelings that she had are through.
Through.


[Chorus]
Cuz Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone through the day 'n' nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite. (at, at, at nite)

Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone, some things will never change. (yeah)
The lonely loner seems to free his
(yeah) mind at nite.
(at, at,(yeah) at nite)


Slow Mo.
(what, what)
When the tempo slows up and creates that new, new.
(what, what)
He seems alive though he is feelin' blue.
(what, what)
The sun is shinin', man he's super cool.
Cool.

The lonely nites.
(what, what)
They fade away, he slips into his white Nik's. (what, what)
He smokes a clip and then he's on the way.
(what, what)

To free his mind in search of,
To free his mind in search of,
To free his mind in search of,


[Chorus}
Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone through the day 'n' nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite.
(at, at, at nite)

Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone, some things will never change.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite.
(at, at, at nite)





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how to start how to start... well i got what i thought would be hella good news today but you know some how i started thinking. some how i believe thinking will be my ultimate demise... theres this idk hole in my life where some one should be but i feel i know who it is that fills it but i feel she's kinda left me in my time of need :\ yet some how im like a heroin addict and shes heroin i just cant stop thinkin about her... i've tried to move on and for a little bit you know i thought i had but then i snapped back. now she's back yet i'm with some one else and im at the same road as i was with vision. do i pass up a different adventure or wait to continue one that adventure that used to be. questions have been answered but not the one in particular that im looking for she says she still loves me she says we still have a chance but just not yet? she says she cant be in a relationship right now... what's that really mean? "I try to run but see I'm not that fast.(what, what)I think I'm first but surely finish last." i was so happy to hear i had a chance i could hardly breath... but then i started listenin to some music and i started thinking... do i want to try to see if we can continue on this old adventure or do i want to continue on this current adventure? in some aspects heart break seems inevitable. so what the fuck do i do do i pass up another adventure like i have just to possibly continue on this old aventure? whys it have to be so hard? why do i get tested like this? is this the rest of my life wishing for what might never be and passing up wat could be? i guess im destined for another sleepless night of thinking and self reflection, self awareness, and thoughts of wat i want for my future. guess the balls in my court what to do what to do :\

"Cuz Day 'N' Nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone through the day 'n' nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite."

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney

Girl I’m going crazy, I can’t get you off my mind Seems like the only thing that I think about is you all the time

Girl I’m going crazy, I can’t get you off my mind
Seems like the only thing that I think about is you all the time
I have no words to express the way I feel about you
I’ve found my heart’s desire – baby it’s you
You give me everything that I want, you give me more than I need
What’s a guy to give a girl who seems to have everything
Too much time is never enough time to be spent with you
Oh yes, oh yes, oh yes it’s true

You’re no ordinary girl, you always speak your mind
You’re no ordinary girl, you’re one of a kind
You’re no ordinary girl, I can see it in your eyes
You’re no ordinary girl, oh yes that’s right

I’ve been around here for a while and yes I’ve seen some things
But nothing even comes close to the love that you bring
You know exactly who you are, you know just who you want to be
I can’t believe this love is happening to me

So much fear to face to get me where I am
It’s clear for me to see this was never my plan
Here we are now girl, just me and you
Loving every minute that I spend with you

You’re no ordinary girl, you always speak your mind
You’re no ordinary girl, you’re one of a kind
You’re no ordinary girl, I can see it in your eyes
You’re no ordinary girl, oh yes that’s right
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how to start how to start i know only a handful of you are gonna read this and most likely the one it was ment for is never gonna see this.. but fu­ck it grab me my shovel and bucket…

how can this song be sooo gah what the fu­ck would i call it? bring me up and happy yet completely demolish my sense of happiness? simply when i think about it....this song basically reminds me and just hints at everything i saw in her everything i felt and it just kills me inside slowly… i heard this song when we had company over and it really hit me i successfully tried to keep my composer until the company left then i cranked it up and started thinking killing my self dagger by dagger line by line, its weird how i cant stop listening to it, it just seems to resonate in my head just trying to tell me something and it seems pretty obvious but some how i still don’t think its probable which is doubtlessly why it kills me… anyways pack a bowl crank it up and enjoy what bring me pain. please just listen to it and just think about it ask your self if you have ever had some one like this in your life and enjoy every second you have with them if there still there

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney

its all over, i know you feel it, its all over, how can i hold on?

I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down

Well I tried to make some
sense of all this
I tried to work it out
I don't know how i got
caught up in the middle
of all this
i just know I got to get the fuck out

Well I tried to change the
channel and move on
I tried to bite my tongue
I don't know how I could
be so fuckin stupid for
so long
I dont know why I had to be the one

This has gotta be some misunderstanding
No, this is not my point of view

It's all over
(When you know it's all over)
I know you feel it
(I know you feel it)
It's all over
(You know it's all over)
How can I hold on?

It's all over
(You know it's all over)
I know you feel it
(I know you feel it)
It's all over
(You know it's all over)
But it's all I do
Ooooh

Well I feel like such a clown this time
Well I feel like giving up
Every single one of my friends
let me down this time
When I was dying, they were living it up

Well I could not control
the wound over stars or
myself
I cannot control the sun
I don't know how I could sleep
in that bed for so long
I don't know why I had to be the one

This has gotta be some misunderstanding
No, this is not my point of view.

It's all over
(When you know it's all over)
I know you feel it
(I know you feel it)
It's all over
(You know it's all over)
How can I hold on?

It's all over
(You know it's all over)
I know you feel it
(I know you feel it)
It's all over
(You know it's all over)
But it's all I do
Ooooh

I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down
I can see the sun going down

Well it feels so quiet before the storm
Well it feels just like a dream
I shelter myself in hope
I know why the caged bird sings...

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lately I've just felt like I've been missing something in my life or some one then i talked to my mentor pat... moving on seems really hard but how many opportunities must i let pass before i learn? why was it over? was it because she didn't want to hold me back? is it because she cared about me a lot and didn't want to hurt me? is it like the time when she stopped talking to me because she cut and she didn't want me to hate her? when i told her it hurts more not talking to her than her cutting? why why why? i feel so empty right now so lost so in the fucking dark... the truth is i miss you and if u ever read this i love you a lot and ill never stop I've told you this a thousand times.. every thing seemed so fucking far away but our hearts were close nothing could have stopped me from wanting to be with you... was it because i told you id give up everything to be with you? that i would give up going to Humboldt and college and leaving So Cal like i wanted to just to be with you if you went to college in la? so many questions unanswered, so many memory's gone. so i guess this is the end of it...i miss you and not being able to talk to you hurts the most so here's to forgetting about you in some form or another good bye

one love

one music

one planet

one chance

much love to you all

peace

Father Stoney

"Well I tried to make some sense of all this I tried to work it out I don't know how i got caught up in the middle of all this i just know I got to get the fuck out Well I tried to change the channel and move on I tried to bite my tongue I don't know how I could be so fuckin stupid for so long I dont know why I had to be the one"-SUNDOWN by (hed) P.E.